Happy Easter.
I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but you’ve had an extra six minutes added to your week lately. When I publish a blog, the system will tell me, “it’s a three minute read.” It’s been a hot minute since I’ve written. Yesterday, Madi asked me if I needed time to write my blog since it was Sunday. I told her I haven’t written anything since March 3. I think it shocked her, and she knew she’d been caught. She was hoping for credit for showing concern about me having time to write, and then she told on herself by revealing she didn’t realize I had taken a break. I may have had a little fun with that one!
And then Madi asked why. Well, I told her, “It’s been a busy first quarter of the year. Work has been tremendous (in a good way); a little cloud has hovered above us (in a not so good way)” And then came the crux of the matter. We have battled Madi‘s migraines in a manner that has felt like sand shifting beneath our feet. We have scrambled for purchase.
After many doctor visits and tests that finally culminated in a spinal tap, the news was good in that nothing seemed to be seriously wrong and not good, in that she just seems inclined to massive migraines with no reason behind it.
I’ve learned many things during this process with the first and foremost being that I am really really bad at waiting. How can we land a man on the moon and not be able to get test results back instantly?
During that wait, there were a couple of numbers from the spinal tap that were out of whack and had us very concerned. To say I was scared is an understatement. If these numbers turned out to be what they possibly indicated, it would mean that this was way more serious than we could have ever anticipated. I got an up close glimpse of something I don’t think I could survive. Not to be melodramatic or morose, but it shook me to my core.
So to recount: not good at waiting, not good at letting go of fear once I get scared. There are a lot of other things I'm not good at as well, but we won’t get into those here, or it will be way over a three minute read.
Looking at the positives: while we don’t understand the elevated numbers, the doctor was ok with their range; Madi is healthy and is on track to finding medicines to curb the migraines hopefully. Previously I knew intellectually that life and good health are precious, but I learned it on a more molecular level this year. I also learned to give myself a little grace. I gave myself some time off from blogging, which I never would have before. I learned that we have the best friends and family in the world, and I learned that you can truly feel the power of prayers being lifted for you.
And your other prayers have been answered with a less than three minute read.
